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[alteanprince]

To Lady Sheeda and Lady Eirika, and everyone for that matter.

I've had quite a bit of time to think lately. There's so much trouble, cheating, lying, and disloyalty. My heart has ached so much. I can spend time with those I care for, but it still aches for the truth, honesty, and justice. I must admit that opening my heart to dating once again is a bit difficult. I've been used, cheated on, lied to, and manipulated. It's a bit hard to even consider opening my heart. For now, my heart remains with my country.

Sheeda, I must say I've been rather hurt, ignoring me in favor of others and making me feel like someone to brag about. I feel that I've been passed up for another, someone considered more 'confident' and perhaps more 'handsome'. I know we've spoken about this, but that does not make the situation any less painful.

I feel I'm not the Marth you fell in love with. I come from a time where the Wars have just ended, Akaneia in ruins. My primary goal was not love but restoration. Now it is to return home to continue that goal. If I truly am to marry you in the future, let it be the future. For now, I want to remain friends just as I remember.

Eirika, I've been confused as of late. I feel as though you haven't quite been true to yourself, changing yourself for me. I want you to be true to yourself, be yourself, not who you think I want you to be. In all honesty, I just want you to be you. I love you like a sister, even after all that's gone on.

I know I am a forgiving person. On the battlefield, one must choose his allies wisely. I cannot say that I've chosen what most would consider 'honorable', joining forces with pirates, thieves, and assassins. I know they are not the most honorable, but I trusted them with my life and they never let me down. I find myself in a similar situation right now. I find my allies can be dishonorable but I also find myself forgiving them, something which most cannot understand. It's how I am.

I also must admit to something. My one true love is Altea. That will never change. And right now, I'm not ready to open my heart to anyone else at the moment.

Sincerely,
Prince Marth

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[regal-rapier.livejournal.com]

I have been open.
I have been true to myself.
I have been trusting.

I always felt this way.
I just couldn't say it before.
I couldn't express it before.

I can express it now.
And I will.

[alteanprince.livejournal.com]

I just had a feeling that something was off, that perhaps there was something on your mind, that you were changing it to be something else. I love you like a sister. I want you to be happy, not pretend to be someone else.

[regal-rapier.livejournal.com]

Of course not, Marth.
I will be the first to openly admit something that I have never wanted anyone to see or to know. It's something my brother knows about me all too well.
I was at one point in time incapable of turning other people down. I have always been one to give up my happiness for the benefit of others, because I pretended that I was happy when others are.
I want to be happy. I want to find my own happiness. I found the person who makes me happy. That person is you. I can be myself with you. I don't have to pretend. I don't have to have a silver tongue with you. I don't have to do great things. I don't have to act at a standard with you.
I am no one but me when I am with you. That's the only person I want to be.
I am who I want to be. I won't change who I am for anyone. Not even you. I want you to like me, to love me, whatever for who I am, not for who you want me to be.

If you do, great.
If not, then it's your loss.

[alteanprince.livejournal.com]

I want to spend time with you, to be with you. You make me happy, but there are times where I feel that I'm walking on eggshells with you, fearing that I may say something wrong to upset you. I don't want to feel that.

I can understand, with all this said, if you wish to not speak with me.

[regal-rapier.livejournal.com]

I want you to be open with me.
I want you to be honest with me.

Thank you, Marth.

And I will always want to speak with you. And I would like to spend more time with you. I'm happy I make you happy. You make me happy too.

[alteanprince.livejournal.com]

I have spoken my mind and now I feel as though I have stuck my foot in my mouth once again, offending you. I feel that I've upset you by simply speaking my mind.

I just felt that but I don't know why.

[regal-rapier.livejournal.com]

You didn't offend me.
I'm not upset.

You did exactly as I asked.
You're A-OK in my book. ^^

[alteanprince.livejournal.com]

I still feel as though I have somehow offended you.

[regal-rapier.livejournal.com]

Nope!
Not at all, Marth!

[regal-lance.livejournal.com]

...What are you *saying*?

My sister has taken great pains to live not for others but out of her own free will. To say that she is lying to herself... that's nonsense. You're not doing my sister nor yourself any good, Lord Marth...

[alteanprince.livejournal.com]

I apologize, Lord Ephraim. There are times when it feels that I must walk on eggshells around her, that there is something else on her mind. If I am wrong, then I truly apologize.

[regal-rapier.livejournal.com]

That's enough.
Don't get involved, Ephraim.

[regal-lance.livejournal.com]

...as you wish, dearest sister.

[regal-rapier.livejournal.com]

Thanks.

[pegasusprincess.livejournal.com]

If that is how you feel, Marth, then I stand behind you. I would rather we remain friends - for now, as you said - than to let anything come between our friendship.

I never meant to hurt you, I know you know that and I know we've discussed it. And now that I know just how much you've really been hurting...my heart aches as well.

We may not be from the same time, as others have said. I'm not going to pretend we are, and I never once did. And after the Wars were over, Akaneia was indeed in such ruination. But know this: you asked me after the War if I would return to Altea with you, to help you rebuild your country, and I told you I would. No matter how long it would take. Because you are a dear friend to me, Marth, and I will stand by you always, whether it is as your childhood friend or your lover.

Remember that.

[alteanprince.livejournal.com]

I cannot thank you enough for understanding. I love you with all my heart, no matter which time we come from. That will never change. My heart is just not ready for thoughts of marriage or the like right now. So much has happened in the last 2 years here. I miss Altea with all of my being. I cannot ignore that.

[pegasusprincess.livejournal.com]

Of course. And when you do feel ready for such thoughts, then you can come and discuss it with me. But for now, if you don't feel that way, it's wrong of me to force you. I'm only happy if you're happy.

[alteanprince.livejournal.com]

I will let you know. Regardless, I would like to spend more time with you. I miss spending time with you, like we did back during the Wars.

[pegasusprincess.livejournal.com]

I would like to spend more time with you, too. My work hours have decreased as of late, since the repairs on the buildings damaged in the quake are finished, so I have a lot more free time now.

I think we spent so much time together during the Wars that people joked I was glued to your hip. Hee.

[alteanprince.livejournal.com]

We all drew so close. I really miss that so much.

[pegasusprincess.livejournal.com]

Mmm. I do too, which is why I want it to be like that again with us.

[alteanprince.livejournal.com]

And while it's only you, Maric, and me, there's no reason the three of us can't be close as we used to be.

[pegasusprincess.livejournal.com]

That's for sure. Especially since it's only you, Maric, and myself. We should try to stick together since, well, we're the only ones from Akaneia, it seems.

[alteanprince.livejournal.com]

Most definitely. In a way, I wish that Kain and Abel were here too, but at the same time, I wouldn't want to bring them here away from Altea as well. Even Gordon, Oguma, or Kashim.

[pegasusprincess.livejournal.com]

I do miss them a lot. They were...they were good allies to have.

[alteanprince.livejournal.com]

You speak of them as if they are no longer with us. They are simply distant from us.

[pegasusprincess.livejournal.com]

Ah...yes. And though they may not physically be with us, spiritually, I am sure they're right here. Especially Elice.

[alteanprince.livejournal.com]

Thoughts like that keep me going every day.

[pegasusprincess.livejournal.com]

And even though I'm sure they've noticed our disappearances, they are probably thinking the same thing. That we haven't really disappeared, that we're still there. It's comforting though.

[alteanprince.livejournal.com]

They've probably begun to search for us.

[pegasusprincess.livejournal.com]

Do you think that, in their search for us, they will eventually find their way here?

[alteanprince.livejournal.com]

In a sense, I do hope they will, but at the same time, I would not wish to steal them from the restoration of Akanea.

[pegasusprincess.livejournal.com]

Altea has already lost their prince to this world, I do not think they would be well off to lose your sister to here, either. But at the same time, you can't help but just miss them, especially since time hasn't probably passed at all back in Akaneia since we all left, and yet here...

...I suddenly feel quite homesick.

[alteanprince.livejournal.com]

That's how I felt the entire time I've been here.

[pegasusprincess.livejournal.com]

I'm sure we're not the only ones who feel this way. I'm sure others are thinking along the same lines.

[alteanprince.livejournal.com]

I'm certain they are.