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Sep. 9th, 2008 10:55 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
To Lady Sheeda and Lady Eirika, and everyone for that matter.
I've had quite a bit of time to think lately. There's so much trouble, cheating, lying, and disloyalty. My heart has ached so much. I can spend time with those I care for, but it still aches for the truth, honesty, and justice. I must admit that opening my heart to dating once again is a bit difficult. I've been used, cheated on, lied to, and manipulated. It's a bit hard to even consider opening my heart. For now, my heart remains with my country.
Sheeda, I must say I've been rather hurt, ignoring me in favor of others and making me feel like someone to brag about. I feel that I've been passed up for another, someone considered more 'confident' and perhaps more 'handsome'. I know we've spoken about this, but that does not make the situation any less painful.
I feel I'm not the Marth you fell in love with. I come from a time where the Wars have just ended, Akaneia in ruins. My primary goal was not love but restoration. Now it is to return home to continue that goal. If I truly am to marry you in the future, let it be the future. For now, I want to remain friends just as I remember.
Eirika, I've been confused as of late. I feel as though you haven't quite been true to yourself, changing yourself for me. I want you to be true to yourself, be yourself, not who you think I want you to be. In all honesty, I just want you to be you. I love you like a sister, even after all that's gone on.
I know I am a forgiving person. On the battlefield, one must choose his allies wisely. I cannot say that I've chosen what most would consider 'honorable', joining forces with pirates, thieves, and assassins. I know they are not the most honorable, but I trusted them with my life and they never let me down. I find myself in a similar situation right now. I find my allies can be dishonorable but I also find myself forgiving them, something which most cannot understand. It's how I am.
I also must admit to something. My one true love is Altea. That will never change. And right now, I'm not ready to open my heart to anyone else at the moment.
Sincerely,
Prince Marth
I've had quite a bit of time to think lately. There's so much trouble, cheating, lying, and disloyalty. My heart has ached so much. I can spend time with those I care for, but it still aches for the truth, honesty, and justice. I must admit that opening my heart to dating once again is a bit difficult. I've been used, cheated on, lied to, and manipulated. It's a bit hard to even consider opening my heart. For now, my heart remains with my country.
Sheeda, I must say I've been rather hurt, ignoring me in favor of others and making me feel like someone to brag about. I feel that I've been passed up for another, someone considered more 'confident' and perhaps more 'handsome'. I know we've spoken about this, but that does not make the situation any less painful.
I feel I'm not the Marth you fell in love with. I come from a time where the Wars have just ended, Akaneia in ruins. My primary goal was not love but restoration. Now it is to return home to continue that goal. If I truly am to marry you in the future, let it be the future. For now, I want to remain friends just as I remember.
Eirika, I've been confused as of late. I feel as though you haven't quite been true to yourself, changing yourself for me. I want you to be true to yourself, be yourself, not who you think I want you to be. In all honesty, I just want you to be you. I love you like a sister, even after all that's gone on.
I know I am a forgiving person. On the battlefield, one must choose his allies wisely. I cannot say that I've chosen what most would consider 'honorable', joining forces with pirates, thieves, and assassins. I know they are not the most honorable, but I trusted them with my life and they never let me down. I find myself in a similar situation right now. I find my allies can be dishonorable but I also find myself forgiving them, something which most cannot understand. It's how I am.
I also must admit to something. My one true love is Altea. That will never change. And right now, I'm not ready to open my heart to anyone else at the moment.
Sincerely,
Prince Marth
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Date: 2008-09-10 06:02 am (UTC)I have been true to myself.
I have been trusting.
I always felt this way.
I just couldn't say it before.
I couldn't express it before.
I can express it now.
And I will.
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Date: 2008-09-10 06:08 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2008-09-10 06:13 am (UTC)I will be the first to openly admit something that I have never wanted anyone to see or to know. It's something my brother knows about me all too well.
I was at one point in time incapable of turning other people down. I have always been one to give up my happiness for the benefit of others, because I pretended that I was happy when others are.
I want to be happy. I want to find my own happiness. I found the person who makes me happy. That person is you. I can be myself with you. I don't have to pretend. I don't have to have a silver tongue with you. I don't have to do great things. I don't have to act at a standard with you.
I am no one but me when I am with you. That's the only person I want to be.
I am who I want to be. I won't change who I am for anyone. Not even you. I want you to like me, to love me, whatever for who I am, not for who you want me to be.
If you do, great.
If not, then it's your loss.
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Date: 2008-09-10 06:26 am (UTC)I can understand, with all this said, if you wish to not speak with me.
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Date: 2008-09-10 06:28 am (UTC)I want you to be honest with me.
Thank you, Marth.
And I will always want to speak with you. And I would like to spend more time with you. I'm happy I make you happy. You make me happy too.
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Date: 2008-09-10 06:31 am (UTC)I just felt that but I don't know why.
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Date: 2008-09-10 06:33 am (UTC)I'm not upset.
You did exactly as I asked.
You're A-OK in my book. ^^
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Date: 2008-09-10 06:47 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2008-09-10 06:48 am (UTC)Not at all, Marth!
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Date: 2008-09-10 06:23 am (UTC)My sister has taken great pains to live not for others but out of her own free will. To say that she is lying to herself... that's nonsense. You're not doing my sister nor yourself any good, Lord Marth...
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Date: 2008-09-10 06:28 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2008-09-10 06:28 am (UTC)Don't get involved, Ephraim.
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Date: 2008-09-10 10:17 am (UTC)I never meant to hurt you, I know you know that and I know we've discussed it. And now that I know just how much you've really been hurting...my heart aches as well.
We may not be from the same time, as others have said. I'm not going to pretend we are, and I never once did. And after the Wars were over, Akaneia was indeed in such ruination. But know this: you asked me after the War if I would return to Altea with you, to help you rebuild your country, and I told you I would. No matter how long it would take. Because you are a dear friend to me, Marth, and I will stand by you always, whether it is as your childhood friend or your lover.
Remember that.
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Date: 2008-09-11 09:26 am (UTC)I think we spent so much time together during the Wars that people joked I was glued to your hip. Hee.
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Date: 2008-09-13 03:50 am (UTC)...I suddenly feel quite homesick.
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